A friend posted this cool website on Facebook that lets you look p your personality traits based on your birthday. You even get to plug in a few birthdays and see if you are astrologically compatible with someone. And I am a f-ing MASOCHIST.
Case in point: I checked me and my best friend, who died almost two years ago:
(I'm Week of the Child, Chris was Week of Society)
I'm beside myself with grief. I had to go to the bathroom to cry so my kids didn't wake up thinking a dying seal landed in our living room. I still feel like I'm missing a piece of my soul. It sucks, but it's true. And reading stuff like that doesn't help me. It makes me think I need a "vacation" in a pretty jacket with buckles and a padded room. I feel useless and terrible, and my heart is aching like it just broke all over again.
The pain and overwhelming sorrow are becoming a daily occurrence. Every day, there's a song, or a car, or Scarlett makes a face, and there's a shattering in my chest that won't quit. Every day, I am broken and miserable. I deserve a gorram Oscar for my happy persona performances. I can make Doris Day look like the miserable sack I am on the inside. I keep reminding myself that I need to fake it until it's true, but I'm starting not to care...